An simple answer from r. India made me cry & think whole night. My sad little life seem to have no hope & i might die of loneliness.
1 Op ask question about his SIL joining cult & 1 of the answer include lines which says ” It takes a very long time for someone to feel dejected and rejected from others that when someone gives them just a little bit of attention, they devote themselves to it” This made me extremely emotional as same happen with me.
I’m UNWANTED daughter. Since childhood, basically entire life my parents LITERALLY NEVER EVER talk nicely to me. Not even for once.
I did everything to impress them. I even used to score 100/100 in exams hoping to get at least little bit of attention & love or at least few kind words but i never got that.
every time they look at me, i can see their eyes are always filled with hate anger & disgust. It hurt me so badly that i can’t express in words.
I was never able to make friends. & my family never liked me.
Every couple I’ve seen so far cheated on each other so I’m afraid to date & decided to not date or marry. In short nobody in the world care about me. I might die alon & Might die because of loneliness.
I thought If i concentrate on my career, get good job or business i might forget the pain of being so hated & neglected but after reading that Question & answer i don’t think this feeling of loneliness ever going to go away.
That OP’s SIL didn’t heal even after having family who seemingly care enough to think about her.
But In my case, i have absolutely no1 who would care if i suddenly disappear or die.
Like described in that answer , now my mental condition is so bad that whenever someone give even little bit attention to me, i devote myself to them.
I’m afraid I’ll be 1 of those ppl who get into bad stuff because of loneliness & depression.
I’m afraid of such sad & lonely life. I can’t get therapy.
Sometimes I feel like i don’t want to learn to cope with problem ( by getting therapy) but i want to solve this problem (by getting love of my parents) but it’s obvious impossible.
So My life seem hopeless. Is there any way out of this loneliness? Or am i gonna die of loneliness.